BlingJing from Gold Typhoon and TTV put together a video compilation of "What Jing Said" and minchong92, the administrator at Jing's Castle (Zhang Yun Jing International Forum), posted the Chinese subtitles and English translations, and . . .. it's beautiful. It's real. It's almost inspiring.
*credit to BlingJing and minchong92
What Zhang Yun Jing has to say…. Produced by BlingJing
I have compulsive disorders about some things,
I get sentimental at random times,
Entirely immersing myself in a melancholy mood,
When I was small, I actually liked drawing better,
Wanting to be seen and at the same time not wanting to be seen,
Contradicting myself by wanting to stand out,
But at the same time wishing to plainly go through no stress,
The album that has influenced me the most:
Jason Mraz’s [Mr. A to Z]
At some times I choose to take the hardest path,
Even though the process is difficult, I feel that this is the real way to live
Not worrying about the process, instead asking myself if I can change the end result.
Why do I exist on this stage, to use music to determine the final result!
If my heart is full, then I don’t care if there’s no one by my side,
My entire life has to be vivid, full of life.
There’s no middle ground when it comes to what I like,
It’s not zero, it’s going all the way,
I’m the type of person where I need more pain, more sadness,
Once my head strikes something and starts bleeding, then I can feel relieved,
Convincing myself that at least I can feel,
I still know what it feels to hurt, what it feels to be sad,
It’s better than not feeling anything at all,
I cannot endure dullness in any way.
Singing a good song from my heart, listening to it again and again,
Everyday before sleeping, I put on my favorite music to accompany me,
It’s as if a lot of musicians are at my ear, calling me into sleep,
I can be blind, but in no way can I not hear,
You can shorten my life, but you can’t cut my sense of hearing,
Positively living out life is a very beautiful thing.
I am still me, and will never be changed by someone else,
Emotional struggles are always existent, but I always have to be brave enough to face them…
I don’t think I’ve ever been someone to live for myself.
Why do you want to change me? I don’t understand…..
The more I collide, the more I feel relieved,
I have to rush into the door until it breaks open,
No matter if it’s love or dreams, the harder it is, the more I don’t want to let go.
A lot of strangers don’t understand you, but they still judge you.
In every song I give my best performance, do you guys feel that?
I really love standing on this stage and performing,
I really love music,
And so I really don’t have confidence in using my own way to love.
I won’t go and think about what special characteristic I have that makes everyone identify with,
I’m just stepping into what I think I should do,
Singing the song well with my best effort, using my strengths to advance steadily
Then others will approve of you.
With music accompanying me, I’m not lonely,
I don’t know who has been saved by music just like I have been,
I question those who succumb to material things.
Being sensitive/meticulous is part of emotion, but I don’t think sensitivity equals emotion.
Those who surrender won’t succeed,
It’s still not the time for me to surrender,
I want to remember the time during Super Idol when I had the feeling that my capabilities were used to the max.
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